quizzes, a weird sub, and great news!

first of all i want to say sorry. i keep breaking my promises. i don’t post when i say i will, and it’s unfair. but i like to write about my life. what’s interesting, and stuff i love. and i don’t want to post boring stuff. so i just don’t post as often as i used to. but i still post, so that’s good. i like posting.


me, Loren, and Brooklyn (Jade isn’t in Chorus) were in Chorus taking a bunch of online quizzes because we’re rebels and using our phones in class. just kidding. there was a substitute.

but yeah. me, Loren, and Brooklyn were just taking a bunch of random quizzes. apparently i’m a Firebender, Brooklyn is an Earthbender, and Loren is a Waterbender. it seems about right.

the sub was really weird thoooooo like he was really creepy…..

he had really long hair in a ponytail and it was super greasy. he made us all play hangman. he also wore a french horn tie and an all black suit. he was reading our music for chorus and was like trying to hum out the notes whilst standing behind us and when was asked him what he was doing he said, “oh i play the french horn and i’m just trying to make out the notes to see if i could play this.”

he was weird. that’s all.

also i have great news!

starting tomorrow i don’t have to use my crutches and next Tuesday i’m getting my boot off!!!!!!!

the doctor said i healed rather quickly and i don’t need my boot or crutches anymore!

i’m back to normal!! (well, almost…)

that means…. I CAN DO MY SHOW!!!!!



it’s been like 6 or 7 weeks in a boot and crutches and i can’t wait to get out of them. i guess my wish was granted! that’s pretty cool.

but Matt said he’d still give me piggyback rides 🙂

oh as i’m thinking about shows this popped in my head.

Facebook (yes i have one no i’m not telling you it) has this thing called memories and when you post something, every year after that the album will pop up on the date you uploaded it and you can see all of the pictures in the album.

i uploaded an album for my 8th grade show and the show was May 1st and 2nd.

i can see all of the pictures from the show! i haven’t looked at them in so long, and it’ll be fun to see me in those huge dresses cozying up to Riley on the couch and embracing my “husband” and talking with my “daughter” about men. i also get to see all of the behind the scenes pictures with me and my old friends (and current friends) in costume and just having fun.

8th grade was a fun time. even though it was middle school and that was a horrible time for me, 8th grade was where everything started to get better. where everything started to fall into place, like how the next 4 years would be and everything.

that show was my first huge role (besides 3rd grade as Mike TV in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory) and it’s gonna be great to see all of the pictures and memories.

i also picked out my car!!!

sadly, i am not getting a Toyota Highlander anymore.

but i’m getting…

a 2017 Acura RDX in Basque Red Pearl 2 with Ebony interior!!!

she’s beautiful and i love her more than Matt (don’t tell him i said that)

i’m totally kidding but i’m getting this amazing car and it’s gonna be amazing and great.

this is a happy post. i like it!

so i’m gonna go get some lunch now, talk soon!










my first kiss(es)

this post is kind of going to be a throwback i guess.

we’re going to be talking about my first kiss.

the one onstage, and the one offstage.

surprisingly, the one offstage came first, in 7th grade. Matt kissed me in 7th grade once. i’m not sure if i said this before, but yeah. the guy i’ve always had a massive crush on kissed me in middle school. and i was really scared so i ran away.

i fucking ran away.

yeah i wasn’t the most mature.

even though it was 4 years ago, i remember it like it was yesterday. it was a quick kiss, probably like 6 seconds. neither of us let go, that’s all. but after i got home and realized what happened i was freaking out. and started fantasizing our life together. creepy, i know. but it never happened again, so i was sad. but i mean, it did end up happening again, just 4 years later. and now we make out all the time. and it’s way longer than 6 seconds.

too far?


it’s true though 😉

now onto my first stage kiss.

i’m going to share 2 of the kisses that happened between me and the mystery boy i haven’t picked a name for yet.

the first time we ever PRACTICED the kiss and everyone else in the cast was watching,

and the one on opening night in front of an audience.

so yes, these kisses were not with Matt. but i still wanted to share them, because it was a sentimental time in my life and all that jazz.

i never really liked this guy by the way. i mean yeah i got that butterflies in my stomach feeling cuz i had to like make out with the guy (way more than once) and it was exciting but i was also really really nervous for everything.

wait i need to stop myself.

all along i’ve been telling you guys that i had a crush on Matt since the beginning of time and shit.

but that’s not exactly the case.

yeah i liked him in like 5th grade (he was in 6th), but that was silly crushes and stuff. so it wasn’t a big deal.

then i stopped liking him, because let’s be real, 5th grade crushes always end. and that’s also when my dad started to get sick, towards the summer. so i couldn’t really focus on anything else.

but i didn’t like anyone else again until like 8th grade. middle school was a traumatic time of my life, with my dad dying when i was only 11. i just couldn’t really focus on boys, or anything. just that my dad was gone.

and yeah, Matt did really kiss me in 7th grade and it was my first actual kiss (weird how the world works, right? my first kiss was the love of my life and i didn’t even know it back then.)  but it didn’t go anywhere then, i was so young and so many things were going on with me and i was just not ready at all. but nobody really is in 7th grade, right?

in 8th grade it was the same thing. i just couldn’t find anybody actually worth it.

(and then in 9th grade, since we were both in high school and saw each other way more, i guess i kind of fell in love with him, really hard. i’ve loved him ever since Freshman Year, and i’ll probably never stop. sorry not sorry.) but i had to kiss this guy. he’s one of my friends to this day, but i wanted to wait and introduce him in this story. he’s the mystery man. but his name is Riley. so he’s not really a mystery anymore. also, we became friends because of this play. we didn’t really know each other before this show, but it brought us close. (by the way, Riley is a junior like me, we were both in 8th grade at the time.)

but yeah. we had to kiss. and it was scary. because it was basically my first kiss, but not, because i had only kissed a guy 1 other time before that.

the character i was playing was a slut. just gonna say that. my character was a slut. and it was really nerve-wracking for me because i was the one who had to kiss him.

scratch that.

i was the one who had to grab his shirt, push my lips against his, and basically climb on top of him/pounce on him WHILE making out with him. and we were supposed to make out for like a minute straight until my “husband” came in and saw us.


yes. my character was married. she was a slut. and a cougar, because i was playing a woman in her early 30’s, (which was weird cuz i’m really short. but anyways) and Riley was playing a character who was 23 and was engaged to my “daughter”. the show was insanely fucked up.

it was a really innapropriate show. (how the fuck do you spell inappropriate? i never knew and i never will know. jeez.)

but yeah. i was the one who started the whole kiss. so i was really really really really scared.

so the first time we were practicing the scene, i was really nervous and sweating and i was blushing the whole time. not because i liked Riley, because i didn’t. at all. i literally didn’t even know him. but because everyone in the cast was watching as we were getting directed to kiss. it was reallyyyyyyyy weirddddddd.

but anyways, the first thing the director told us to do was kiss. like we didn’t even start practicing the scene, she just told us to kiss to get the awkwardness out of the way and “get used to each other”.

but of course since i was the one who had to kiss him, i was the one who had to lean in and kiss him.

so i did that. and it went fine, actually. yeah, it was so awkward, but we just had to block out everyone else and just kiss. and we did. that’s all. and everyone was doing that typical middle schooler “oooooo” thing. but it was fine.

then we moved onto rehearsing the actual scene.

we were saying our lines and then just jumped into the kiss. and i was on top of him just making out with him.

it was an important time in my life. even if it wasn’t with someone i was in love with. but that definitely brought us closer. even though it was 3 years ago and we were just little 8th graders, it was the start of a good friendship.

after practicing the kissing more than like 3 times, it just seemed natural. so opening night went perfectly fine. for a stage kiss, i mean.

and that’s all it was.

but i thought i’d share it, because it was an important time in my life. and it was kind of interesting, thinking back on it.

i also wanna say i’m sorry that i’ve been posting about kissing lately, but i just wanted to share this. i’ll be back tomorrow with a non-kissing story, i promise.

love you ❤



where I think about everything. where I contemplate life, and other things. where i can wash away a bad day.

I love showers. in the shower I think about life. where would I be right now if one little thing was different? if I lived in a different state, if Mason hadn’t have dissapeared. but when you think about it, you can’t change the past. what happened has already happened and all you can ever do is think about it. 

if we were still doing Beauty And The Beast, would Matt have kissed me during rehearsal? if I was a senior and not a junior, would I have the same friend circle?

that’s what I think about in the shower. the what ifs. what if this happened , and what do I do now that this happened?

but a shower is the perfect place to think. you’re alone, and in an environment where you can wash away the bad thoughts, and get rained on by the good things.

but these are serious things I think about. not just the past. but the future.

what if I don’t get into college? what if me and Matt break up? what if I die?

they all can happen. my demons come out in the shower. it’s scary.

but it’s also a great thing. 

thinking is a great thing. 

(sorry it’s so short, I have to go to rehearsal, but I wanted to share this)

the happiness tag :)

so i just found out that i was nominated by Bella to do the Happiness Tag! i was reading through the tag and thought it was adorable, and wanted to do it!

so let’s get started!

~list 5 things that make you happy~

1. THE SWING SET – at my school there is a swing set that has been there since i was a little girl. i like to go to school sometimes at night and just swing on the swings a little, with friends or alone. they relieve stress and i just go there to day dream, or talk to myself. it’s really nice.

2. ACTING – ever since i was a little kindergartner, i’ve been in musicals and plays. it’s really fun to dive into a specific character, and just perform. it’s especially fun when you’re nothing like your character, because you really have to dig deep to get all of the emotions your character holds. it’s something that will be in my life forever.

3. MY HORSE – i have always ridden horses. it ran in my dad’s side of the family. he taught me how to ride, and from there i got my first pony! she sadly passed away a couple years ago, but i have a horse now (her name is Diva) and she makes me so happy. she’s so hard-working and always makes me smile.

4. MY FRIENDS – so i know this sounds cliche and everything but literally i love my friends so much. they have been with me through literally everything and i’d be lost in this world without them. i love them so much and they make me so happy whenever something is going downhill.

5. KISSING – this is going to sound really weird, but kissing makes me happy! like i don’t know how to describe it, but i really love those movie kisses, where the girl pulls the guy in and there’s that cute cheesy music. they’re just so romantic. i’m such a sap. you don’t have to tell me.

~list 5 songs that make you happy~

  1. Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran – Matt and i sang this song at the karaoke bar for my 16th birthday, and it’s kind of our song. it’s a really sweet and cute song and i really love it. it makes me smile whenever i hear it.

2. Far Far by Yael Naim – last year, i went through a dark patch, with Mason leaving, and i just carried a lot of sadness with me last year. i found this song one day and it made me feel better, i felt like i could really relate to the song. i still listen to it whenever i’m sad, and it’s just really nice.

3. Dangerous Woman by Ariana Grande – i don’t really know why i’m so fond of this one, but i guess it brings out my inner “dangerous woman”. i’m such a dad wtf. but it’s fun to sing along to and feel like a rebel. yeah i’m a dork.

4. Drop It Like It’s Hot by Snoop Dog – so this song isn’t the most appropriate. but neither am i, so it works out. but i don’t know why but this song is just really catchy and makes me laugh and smile when i hear it, it’s strange. but i listen to it when i’m practicing lines or doing homework, and it’s always fun to make up random arm movements to go along with it.

5. Nervous Girls by Lucy Hale – i feel like i can really relate to this song. it’s also really fun to belt out the chorus when i’m alone in my room. it’s kind of a country song but it’s a really relatable piece.

~list 5 people you tag to do this~

I tag:

Elm (justelm)

just a blank space (Blog filled with thoughts)

anniejane (anniejane)

roxysinthemiddleofnowhere (Living In A World Of Wonder)

Glamorous_Etoiles (Glamorous Etoiles)

so that’s the tag! i know it wasn’t a long one and i didn’t post an actual post, but i promise i’ll get one up by tomorrow! love you guys!


classical cafe & the Loren and Aria show… and other stuff.

first of all I wanna say I’m sorry. I haven’t been updating as much as I used to and it bothers me. but I just don’t know what to write about! like I don’t want to post about boring shit, ya know? but I have something cool to share today, so let’s get to that.

classical cafe. it’s basically Matt, Daniel and a bunch of their friends play music all around the school during lunch and it’s actually pretty cool. they play on their guitars and sing and it’s some good shit. they are literally fucking musical gods. there’s not much detail to it, they just brighten my day.

the Loren and Aria show. let me explain.

loren and I were driving around yesterday going to a bunch of fast food places (cuz we’re fat as fuck and it’s good). I’ve seen a bunch of you tubers vlog and thought it would be funny to try so I pulled out my phone and me and Loren were vlogging. it’s the Loren and Aria show. it was really funny to rewatch the clips of us. but sorry, I’m not gonna make a YouTube channel. 

now for the other stuff. there’s a couple of things actually. 

my mom gave me the sex talk. and me and Matt almost had sex in his car.

I’ll start with the sex talk. 

so my mom came into my room earlier to talk to me. she said – “Aria, I know that you’re in a relationship now with someone you love, and sometimes that means making decisions.”

and I knew she was talking about sex. and I didn’t want to hear this at all.

I said “first of all, mom, it’s none of your business if me and Matt are having sex. but if and when we do, protection will be used. I don’t want to be a mom at 16 as much as you don’t want to be a grandma at 45.” 

she then said “then don’t fucking scare me with any more pregnancy tests! love you! use protection!”  and then she left. 

oh words cannot explain how much I love my mom. and how annoying she is.

now onto the car. I’m over exaggerating. we didn’t ALMOST have sex, but we made out. quite a bit. 

at the end of the day we disappeared into his car. we were just kissing. we’re not horny teenagers or anything, but we’re dating, we can do what we want. we were just making out for a long time. I’m not going into detail. but the only reason we stopped was because of my foot. but we were just laying in the front seat of his truck (yes he owns a truck and it’s amazing) making out. that’s it. 

sorry if that’s disgusting or annoying. but it is what it is.

but as of now, I’m still a virgin. and probably will be for a while. but that’s ok, frankly I’m scared. don’t laugh at me.

but how do u make sex good? like wtf I’m so undereducated. 

this is getting too innapropriate for your little virgin ears and eyes. let’s change the topic.

so I never really support Girl Scouts, but I really wanted some cookies. so I bought some. and they’re fucking delicious. more delicious than Matt. wait. did I really just say that? this post is getting out of control, I need to stop right now. 

I’m just gonna finish my physics homework and work on lines and eat some more cookies. 

bye !

never have i ever

when you’re with your friends, you have a double study hall and you’re as mature as a bunch of 8th graders, you play never have i ever. and it gets weird.

Matt, Jade, Loren (i’ll put her as a person on my who’s who page after this post), Brooklyn and i were really bored. and instead of going on social media like normal teenagers, we decided to play never have i ever. we thought it would be stupid, but it was actually really funny.

wait i gotta explain something first. so Brooklyn is a freshman and Matt is a senior but in our high school the grades and classes are mixed together, so it would make sense for freshmen (Brooklyn), juniors (me, Jade, Loren), and seniors (Matt) to be all together. sophomores are in there too, but we don’t have any in our friend “group” thing.


so if you don’t know, (according to Wikipedia) never have i ever is where all of the players get into a circle. Then, the first player says a simple statement starting with “Never have I ever“. Anyone who has done what the first player has not must drink. Play then continues around the circle, and the next person makes a statement.

you can play without alcohol, which is what we did. we just used our hands, like put up 5 fingers and put one down for each thing we did.

we started off simple, but found out stuff about everyone that we didn’t know before.

Brooklyn’s never kissed anyone. (she’s only a freshman, so i guess it makes sense)

Jade and Loren have both used a dildo before. (don’t judge, you probably have too)

Jade, Matt, Brooklyn and I are still virgins. (hey, #virgin pride)

Matt and Loren have both had sex dreams.

Matt and I smoked pot. (but we’re not drug addicts. lol.)

Loren dated someone with longer hair than her. (and she has pretty long hair)

that’s not even half of what we learned about each other today. but i’m not gonna share.

and you’re all probably wondering why i’m even sharing all of this about my friends in the first place.

first of all, it’s my journal. where i write everything down that happens to me. and you guys just happen to be here to read and second-handedly witness it. it’s no different than a million people reading your journal.

second of all, none of the names i use are their real names.

but i’m not a liar, at all. everything i post about is true. i just needed some sort of anonymity.

and third, they don’t care. we’re all pretty care free people.


(an hour later)

i’m total shit at posting. i meant to get this up an hour ago. what the hell.

sorry though. i needed chinese food really badly.

but i’m back now so i can finish this god damn post.


and i left again. wtf.

so i’m just gonna go.

sorry that this post is crap.

love you !










guess who’s back……

i am!

well, i’ve actually been back for a couple of days now.

but i haven’t gotten around to blogging, because of other things i had to do.

but i’m back! and this time, for good.

i missed blogging! my life felt different, even though i’ve only been gone for like a week.

i’ll do another full blog post about my trip (if you want) but this one is just an update post.

so my trip was amazing. Matt and I had an amazing time and i loved every second of it. we got to tour so many places and i loved it so much.

i had school today. well i’m actually still there, but it’s free period, so i can do whatever i want. so apparently i won a superlative. i had to take this picture for the yearbook. idk which one i won but it’ll be exciting to see when i get the book in June.

so i don’t know if you know this, but Matt is older than me by a year. he’s a senior and i’m a junior. so he’s graduating this year. and i’m not. but we’re gonna figure everything out. we will be able to figure it out. hopefully. i mean i love him more than life. we’ll figure it out.

i went back to the doctor for my foot when i got back from my trip, and i have an update!

so they say it’s healing, but it’s healing slowly. i go back in like 3 weeks, and i’ll get more information then. they said i’ll probably be able to stop using crutches when i go back in 3 weeks, but we’ll see. but for now, piggy back rides from Matt are working just fine for me.

how are you all?