how the fuck did i end up here.
it has been exactly one year since i created this blog.
to be honest, i completely forgot about it and now i’m sad because i remember it made me so happy to talk to all of you and post about random shit.
but boy, do i need to update you guys on literally everything.
i’m a senior in high school now! i’m almost done with all of the little fuckers that i’ll never have to see again! isn’t that just great? (as you can see my personality has barely changed at all)
sooooo i have depression. i don’t remember if i mentioned that before. well yea, that’s a sucky thing. it gets in the way, but i’ve been learning to cope with it. i started therapy a couple months ago. it all kind of started after my dad died, but intensified after i got older.
i always thought i’d marry a guy. Matt specifically. i love him 100%, but i lost feelings for him a couple months ago. not because he’s a shit person because he’s not, and has always been there for me and still is. i’ve spent a lot of time figuring myself out, and i realized that i liked girls, in a romantic way. i also like boys though, so i was confused. but i’m bisexual meaning i’m sexually and romantically attracted to boys and girls. i fell in love with my best friend Jade, you know her. this all happened while i was with Matt. Jade and i were hammered drunk one night talking about feelings and shit. a lot of stuff spilled out that i hadn’t even thought about before. how i didn’t know who i was anymore and how i didn’t even know if i loved Matt. we then were just giggling and talking and we kissed each other. it felt great. it was just pure passion and love. we fell asleep and talked it through the next morning. she had feelings for me, and i assumed i did as well, because the kiss just felt so right. so we ended up “getting together” without Matt knowing. we’d kiss and explore each other and just do things for fun. then after a week or two, i told Matt. he wasn’t mad, just sad. we’re no longer together, but we still love each other (as friends). i just want to be happy, and i want him to be happy. technically i cheated on him, which makes me shitty. but i had no idea what feelings even were. oh by the way i’m not a virgin lolol Matt and i ended up having sex in June bc we’re teenagers and we’re horny, what can we say. but i wouldn’t have wanted to lose my virginity any other way, even though those feelings are gone. also, Jadey and i did some things 😉
the “thing” with me and Jadey didn’t last. we’re still best friends and love each other to death, but it was all fun and games while drunk or high with a couple of loose strings attached. i figured that if you had to get drunk or high to love someone it wasn’t truly real. we’re still super close though, and we laugh about the memories.
i also ended up getting together with a girl i met september because i’m a horny little mother fucker. we were together for like a month, and then i found out she was cheating on me. karma really is a thing, isn’t it.
i’ve spent the time since october being single and trying to be happy. Loren and i haven’t posted a youtube video in a super long time. Brooklyn my lil babe is doing great as a sophomore. she’s so cute i love her. i remember when i was a sophomore. Lorelei is still a fucking ass who needs to smoke a blunt and suck some dick. needless to say, we still hate each other. Mackenzie grew up, and isn’t really Satan anymore. we don’t talk ever but i hope she’s not still 9 years old in her brain. Matt is still cheesy old Matt. still dreamy and loving, and a great best friend. life is pretty swell.
i have some good news though. get excited folks.
i’m going to start blogging again. totally real, totally raw pieces of my life. i remember how happy it made me and how i loved it, and i want to keep posting because i love it so much. so yay!
also i’m in a relationship kind of? i’m in love with this girl. we met in September (not the asshole who cheated on me) because she transferred to our school. she’s beautiful and we get along so well. we have amazing chemistry and she’s so adorable and lovely. i told her how i felt about her, and we’re on our way towards getting together. her name is Stella. i’ll add her to the “who’s who” page.
also, another girl transferred to our school! her name is Jane and she’s super nice. we’re really close friends. she’s super tall too. she’s also gorgeous but doesn’t think she is. she’s super funny and i’m so glad that we met. i’ll also add her to the “who’s who” page.
OH I TOTALLY FORGOT!!! I GOT MY LICENCE AND MY OWN CAR! i love cheryl so much (the oldies who used to read my blog will remember that i said i’d name her cheryl and i did!) i love Cheryl. if u want i’ll also add Cheryl to the list of people lolol.
so yeah, that’s my life up until this very moment. also i love weed it’s gr8.
so welcome back if you’re not new, but welcome if you are! i’m Aria, i’m 16 years old, and i love you.
HOLY SHIT WAIT
SO I GOT ANOTHER HORSE
HER NAME IS JASMINE (jazz) AND SHE’S THE SWEETEST THING EVER I LOVE HER SO MUCH
i still have Diva don’t worry, she’s an old lady now but she’s still kickin’. i love her she’ll always be my favorite (sorry jasmine)
JAZZ IS A HUGE DARK BAY MARE AND I’M IN LOVE WITH HER SHE’S SO SWEET
as you can see i’ve never left my horse phase lmao
so yea, that’s my life.
welcome to the shit show 🙂
Aria Rose Kopenfelt ❤